I know I'm up against three incredible competitors and two of us are going home tonight, so I'm gonna lean into the one thing that hopefully sets me apart, and that's my heart. I honestly didn't know how that would go, so now that it's the semifinals I kinda feel like I can maybe do anything. I changed my song last minute to one I hardly knew, and I was shocked that I pulled it off. "Coming into the last round, I was more nervous than ever. I said I wanted to be challenged so here I am, and hopefully I can pull it off." My rehearsal was terrible, like it was awful. I changed the song last minute so it's definitely a risk. After the last performance, I wanted to pivot a little bit. I'm really thankful for my experiences, and hopefully I made a little bit easier for other people to follow. So their words were real critical, telling me what I should and shouldn't wear, what I should and shouldn't look like, all because I was a woman. When I was discovered, the press, just, it wasn't real kind to me. "One thing I've learned in my life is the power of words. Hey, why not look? Speaking of l'amour, what's more romantic than a song in French? I've never sung in French before, but I've been practicing. King of Hearts should have emotional intelligence, he should be smart, he should be handsome, he's outdoorsy- heck, I want him to have a private plane, if I'm askin'! Not even a joke. Oh my gosh, we should make this into a dating profile! Mr. I've definitely loved and lost, but hey, that don't mean I can't get back on my horse. "I think people are often surprised that I'm shy, 'cause I don't come off like that on stage. It's what we do with the pieces that make us extraordinary." All of our hearts are destined to be broken. I'm real grateful to the hardships that I've overcome because they've made me who I am. I left home when I was pretty young and it was definitely scary at times. Growing up, there wasn't a lot of warmth in my household. But the truth is, I have spent my entire life learning how to champion my own heart. I'm pretty excited to do things on this stage that I never thought I would do. "Now they say if you follow your heart, it's gonna lead you on some amazing adventures. "Dream On" by Aerosmith (Duet with Nicole Scherzinger) The performer wears a shiny red bodysuit underneath with matching red gloves and red ankle boots with gold glitter on the tips. She has one blue eye with three white tears underneath, blue lips that have lights embeded into them, and wears a gold crown. The heart is covered in gold spikes all over their body. And so I found that to be the most surprising thing and what I really enjoyed the most.The Queen of Hearts is basically a polygonal red heart. So even though it's so game-ified I just felt like I really sincerely got to be myself, and stand for what I stand for, which is heart and feeling and emotion and connection. And it wasn't about my name, and it wasn't about my story, or where I was from or my accent or all those things that aren't really you. And so the show actually in a really interesting way, even though it's such a fun, silly pop show, I feel like allowed me to show so sincerely and authentically who I was, that most essential thing, which to me is my heart. We can't place our worth on our job title, or our names, or where we're from, or whether we had a successful record or not. I think the thing I found most surprising about the show was I have a mental health foundation, and I work with kids, and I tell the kids a lot that our worth has to be innate and intrinsic, you know, we can't base our worth outside of us. There were multiple times on stage where I was like, "What am I doing? I don't know if I'm going to sing this the way I want to." So that was really fun. And so the show let me focus just on my technical ability. I've always written for the story, and for some reason just never really showcased how technically good I was as a singer. It didn't take a lot of time, it let me push myself vocally, which was the second reason I did it. So the show really checked that box for me. And so finding opportunities that allow you to be an artist that don't take all your time, to help you promote your music, and help you develop as an artist in ways you haven't done before, that's really valuable. But for me, the show, obviously my goal was to be a great, engaged, present mom, but I am also an artist. So it's a really difficult transition, I think, for women, and not a lot of women are talking about it. And that's obviously hard as a mom when your child is in school. We tour and we promote maybe for a year at a time. The industry is not very kind to moms, mainly just because of the lifestyle. One, is just a really practical box that may not be very sexy to talk about, but I don't know why women don't talk about it more - it's hard to be a mom in the music business.
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